sorry "P" these are so pointless but i really need an "A" cuz i don't wanna take the exam..as much as i wanna spend time with you i don't sorry...much love ashlee
p.s this is my last one

catching up

so i need to keep doing blog posts to catch up because i'm falling way behind so this one is pointless but i have one more to do!!...

fake nails

so for prom all the girls are so excited to get their nails done and get primped...well the fake nails stink to no end...i can't seem to get them off and they are hurting reallly really reallly bad!!...they peel off your nails and are super expensive...and they hurt...so my mission is to get them all off before tomorrow!!!

don't care

So once again i have procrastinated (not spelled right i kno)...i have put off this spring board thing for ever and now its due tomorrow...a big part of it thou is my parents freaking out about paying over the internet...so now its the last minute and im pretty much screwed...i just don't wanna do anything right now but just sit...and i know its gunna bite me in the butt in the long run but right now i don't care...peace

Finally done!!

School is about over and i'm excited...Mrs. Prange isn't my favorte teacher and i'm excited to finally leave her...i've had her for two years in a row and this year two hours out of my day...practically back to back...i've had an interesting year and i'm pumped to get out of it...drama, girls and stupid stuff has got on my nerves and i just want to get out...

Prom!

prom is approaching us very rapdily and i have this bitter sweet feeling...i'm excited but then again i'm not...i'm ready for my senior year to come to a close...i have had fun throughout my high school even though i've had some rough times...my freshman and sophomore year are by far the best years i have ever had...and thanks to the people i shared it with that made it so wonderful...i'm glad i have the friends i do have...and i'm pumped for edwardsville next year with andrea and mark...it should be wonderful!!!....good luck to all the seniors and have fun in college!

boys boys boys

Boys are dumb...no offense mark...but they are...some are stalkish and some are just down right clinging...and all the good ones are taken...boys in my life are starting to freak me out and i know kathleen can say the same lol...i just want my space and i have told boys that but they keep bothering me...leaving me little notes in my locker...he use to txt me all the time but that part of it has stopped which is nice...so i don't know what i'm going to do because i just want to be alone have my friends and have FUN!!! peace

4th quarter

now 4th quarter is upon us and i'm so excited to graduate and get out of here....i'm glad Andrea and i are rooming together it shall be fun!! i just want to get away from everyone here besides andrea!! and Mrs Prange hehe i lie...lol

birthday blues...cont.

So...i'm going to continue my blog from yesterday...my birthday party that i had, where only a few close people came, turned out ok but it was a late night for me and i had to work the next morning...here is how my day went on Sunday March 15, 2009..my birthday...After going to bed at Midnight the night before i had to get up at 445 to get up, wake up, and get ready for work...i was at work from 530-930; which wasn't that bad but it was hard to be awake....after work i went home and opened some cards and a gift from my cousins....my dad was standing over my shoulder being annoying and counting all the money i was receiving from these cards...this got really agervating and i told him to back off.....i had warned my family that i was going to be tired and my patience were limited but of course dad didn't listen it was my day and he made me cry....it never fails, every homecoming he makes me cry, every birthday he makes me cry and prom he made me cry....its like he can't stand it when the day has to be about me and he is left in the shadows....it drives me up the wall.....after that whole ordeal we picked up emily and went to brunch....i drove seperatly because john came and there was no way i was going to ride with him....my so called brother didn't even wish me a happy birthday or get me a simple card....the only reason he came was because it was a free meal and he wanted to mooch off of my dad as always....so after brunch i went and got my belly pierced, that was the highlight of my birthday....then i went to gages and watched a movie then went to dinner with his family...dinner with his family was better than eating with mine....so that was my birthday.....but i will make up for it after my mom's surgey :)

birthday blues

so my birthday was yesterday and i have had a not so good birthday....next blog will be more details...i'm out of time

finally content

so for lent i decided to give up being a royal b!*#%....so far it's going really well...its weird to me though because i thought it would be really hard but its not....i'm being nice to others and trying to help out more around the house...i finally feel content about life and about what lies ahead of me...i know that i haven't made a decision about college and its getting closer and closer but i know that i have to get away from my dad....thats the only way i'll truly be happy....and i just feel wierd about some things....i don't know what to do really i guess all i can do is take it day by day and see what happens....

You know when you were like in the 6th grade and you liked a boy and he liked you back and you called yourself boyfriend and girlfriend but it technically didn't count? Because you didn't really go out on dates it was just a label...i wish dating could go back to that because then i wouldn't have to worry about stupid boys...no offense mark...but unfortantly its not like that anymore and boys are stupid...so kyle and i are done and there is no chance that we would ever go back out....i'm fine with that...but there has been something bothering me..i have had this crush for a very very long time but i know that we probably wouldn't be able to get together and try to make it work...which i'm fine being friends with him....just kind of eats at me....he is always in the back of my mind when i'm with a boyfriend or looking for someone...but as life goes on and maybe fate will bring us together if it was meant to be...other wise i'm just fine being really good friends...i like to have my guy friends there to help me through boy problems cause girls are good with listening and bashing on boys but my guy friends bring me back to earth and help me look at both sides....so even though its hard to have a guy friend that you really like i'm good at keeping my true feelings to myself and though he may not know how i feel thats ok with me....and on a different note i'm trying this new thing were i'm nice to everyone no matter how much i don't like them...but i have learned through my mom that life is too short to spend being mean to people you don't like...so just suck it up and be nice to everyone...you never know how that person truly is to others......you may just end up becoming good friends with them....and you can become a happier person

Spring is in the air

Spring is in the air and i love it....spring and summer are by far my favorite time of the year....next would be fall the the winter....and love is in the air too....i have recently started dating kyle klostermann...and i really do like him and kathleen and mark make fun of me all the time cuz supposedly i secretyl love shawn....but whatever...

built cheap

So...once again i get hurt...it never seems to fail that i can't go a day without getting hurt and it is really starting to suck....but now i just gotta suck it up and keep pushing though life one step at a time

left alone

you know how you just so mad that you just want to be left alone...well thats how i have been feeling the past week or so...there has been just so much to deal with from school to home and cheerleading in between....i just feel over whelmed and angry all the time....my parents are wanting me to get my anger under control so they are threating me with anger management and seeing a therapist....no one really knows what really goes on behind closed doors....after i leave school or after i leave cheerleading....i don't like to tell anyone what goes on at home and yeah thats my choice and now i'm having to deal with it....maybe having someone to talk to would be nice and it might help but i really don't know....its just hard to deal with sometimes....i dunno hopefully things will get better

crunch time is upon us....i think we are all feeling the pressure....even me...i'm a little nervous about competition i will admitt but not too worried....i think if everyone can get over the stupid stuff that goes on within the squad we can pull together...we all can get caught up in the drama and girls will be girls but in the end we have to remember what we are all trying to achieve... i don't care what they all want to say about me behind my back...i have my life and my problems to worry about and i don't have the need or the energy to worry what people are saying behind my back.....i guess its good to know that i'm popular enough to be their main topic for their conversations....yes you can go ahead and call me every name in the book....I DON'T CARE.....i'm just sick and tired of all the crap...and the FAKENESS..... i'm tired of it and don't want to be apart of it....so say what you want and get over it

M&M fetish

As many of you might know of my M&M fetish...i can't live with out them....they are they magical...they cure every emotional anxiety i have...if i'm angry they make me happy...if i'm sad they make me happy.....i'm also a real big stiff with my M&Ms....no one can have my M&MS but me i don't like to share they are mine and only mine....even though they can sometimes give me a belly ache i still love to eat them....everyone in cheerleading gives me a hard time about my M&Ms and tries to steal them ....but they are mine and no one can take them.....

Competition

Competition is now upon us....its really crunch time for all of us cheerleader.....some are getting freaked out....as for my right now i'm calm and ready....yes we have yet to do our rutine full out but we are beyond where we were last year.....i'm confident that once we hit that mat in highland on the 25 of january everything will come together.....as long as EVERYBODY gives it their all....so kathleen i know your going to read this and i want you to know be confident and keep your head up...you are a great cheerleader one of the best don't let anyone get you down or tell you otherwise....everything will come together and i believe we will do well... :)

New years resolution

My new years resolution as some of you might know is to be nice to others and just have a positive outlook on life....over the break my mom told me that this may be her last christmas and her last new year.... this got me thinking of my new years resolution....my mom taught me that life is too short to take for granted and to life it up with a smile on my face....so i'm going to do just that....so far it has been going good....i'm a lot happier i'm having more fun.... and i'm becoming closer to my mom which is the greatest gift of all....even though she is my mom i now feel like i can talk to her like she is just one of my friends...tell me what you think about my new year resolution..