left alone

you know how you just so mad that you just want to be left alone...well thats how i have been feeling the past week or so...there has been just so much to deal with from school to home and cheerleading in between....i just feel over whelmed and angry all the time....my parents are wanting me to get my anger under control so they are threating me with anger management and seeing a therapist....no one really knows what really goes on behind closed doors....after i leave school or after i leave cheerleading....i don't like to tell anyone what goes on at home and yeah thats my choice and now i'm having to deal with it....maybe having someone to talk to would be nice and it might help but i really don't know....its just hard to deal with sometimes....i dunno hopefully things will get better

crunch time is upon us....i think we are all feeling the pressure....even me...i'm a little nervous about competition i will admitt but not too worried....i think if everyone can get over the stupid stuff that goes on within the squad we can pull together...we all can get caught up in the drama and girls will be girls but in the end we have to remember what we are all trying to achieve... i don't care what they all want to say about me behind my back...i have my life and my problems to worry about and i don't have the need or the energy to worry what people are saying behind my back.....i guess its good to know that i'm popular enough to be their main topic for their conversations....yes you can go ahead and call me every name in the book....I DON'T CARE.....i'm just sick and tired of all the crap...and the FAKENESS..... i'm tired of it and don't want to be apart of it....so say what you want and get over it

M&M fetish

As many of you might know of my M&M fetish...i can't live with out them....they are they magical...they cure every emotional anxiety i have...if i'm angry they make me happy...if i'm sad they make me happy.....i'm also a real big stiff with my M&Ms....no one can have my M&MS but me i don't like to share they are mine and only mine....even though they can sometimes give me a belly ache i still love to eat them....everyone in cheerleading gives me a hard time about my M&Ms and tries to steal them ....but they are mine and no one can take them.....

Competition

Competition is now upon us....its really crunch time for all of us cheerleader.....some are getting freaked out....as for my right now i'm calm and ready....yes we have yet to do our rutine full out but we are beyond where we were last year.....i'm confident that once we hit that mat in highland on the 25 of january everything will come together.....as long as EVERYBODY gives it their all....so kathleen i know your going to read this and i want you to know be confident and keep your head up...you are a great cheerleader one of the best don't let anyone get you down or tell you otherwise....everything will come together and i believe we will do well... :)

New years resolution

My new years resolution as some of you might know is to be nice to others and just have a positive outlook on life....over the break my mom told me that this may be her last christmas and her last new year.... this got me thinking of my new years resolution....my mom taught me that life is too short to take for granted and to life it up with a smile on my face....so i'm going to do just that....so far it has been going good....i'm a lot happier i'm having more fun.... and i'm becoming closer to my mom which is the greatest gift of all....even though she is my mom i now feel like i can talk to her like she is just one of my friends...tell me what you think about my new year resolution..